12:59 lullaby

I'm all alone at home right now. This is rare. Nice, but rare. I miss this; really, I do.

Away from the sun again...

Lethbridge is cold. Very cold. Bri, I love you.

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done?
I miss the life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am?

Don't worry, I won't do anything I'll regret.
I'm just confused.
Perplexed.
Angered.
Thought-provoked.
Frustrated.
Anyone care to add another?
School is harder than I'd anticipated.

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I lovelovelove this song. So good.

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here?
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

I miss listening to jazz all the time. I miss listening to opera, too.
I want to go to the Bedouin Soundclash concert next week more than anything.
It's the second of their concerts I'll miss in one semester.
Dang.

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

I want to sing. More than anything. I want to sing again. Like I used to.
I want my abs to stop hurting. I want to stop coughing horrendously every time I inhale or speak.

"There's one thing about pain."
"What's that Master Chief?"
"It lets you know you're not dead yet."

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done

Bri's heart is in Quebec.
Mine is Kenya. Or Uganda. Or Sierra Leone. I just haven't found it yet. I hope I find it soon.
I'll go crazy if I go without it for much longer.

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me

I want the sun. I want that life.

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

I'll get it one day. I know it. I'll be there. And I'll be happier than ever before.
I'll get there somehow. I'm not sure yet how that'll come about.

But it'll happen.
Oh no...
Count on it.
Yeah...
I'm going to find my heart.
I'm gone...