I thought I'd have all these new stories to write about since coming back to RD and getting this new fancy job and mostly just having a whole bunch of new adventures in a city I haven't known in almost 7 years. Instead I got this city with a transportation system that's WORSE than Leth (hard to believe, I know), all these possibilities for new jobs and none of them pans out, and two halves of a church I once loved. I have met some very helpful people along the way (none of whom have been bus drivers, for the record), but that's where the chain breaks down. And that, in turn, is why I'm breaking down. Not truly having a breakdown, but this city is slowly crushing my spirit, which is also crushing my Scottish dream. Every week I don't have a job is another week I dip into my savings account and push my dream farther away. Now I don't mean to sound like a whiny baby, but I'm fed up being trapped in a vortex of not making enough money to save quickly, and that's a large part of why I'm back in RD.
ARGH. Seriously, someone get me out of this city!!
The reason I chose to call this post 'Let Me Feel You Shine' (from David Crowder's last album Give Us Rest) is because I really connected to the lyrics and felt like they're very accurately describing me in my current situation. *deep breath*
But through all the crap that RD is throwing at me and with all the jobs it's denying me,
God is good. All the time. God is good.
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