blah days

I'm back! Although this is a rather old picture (somewhere around Jan. '12, I think), it nicely sums up my mood today. Bored, but not wanting to do anything about it; alone, but not lonely; and tired, always tired. I'm starting to actually get used to getting enough sleep for once, and I've found that a lot of my days off are spent sleeping in and having naps. Maybe not such a bad thing, but maybe something to work on before going back to the real world.

This beaut is from the morning after the night game during the Sr High Youth Retreat... yup.

I've been working through some issues with Jesus lately, and one of the more prominent ones is whether I should go back to the UK or back to Deathbridge. I seem to be getting two distinct and yet connected messages in regards to it, and I wish that He would just give me a solid yay/nay about each option.

I saw a movie over the Thanksgiving weekend that made me want to sing again, and I think it's really sad that I don't have the voice I used to. It's getting better, but I have to be really diligent in not eating dairy for my voice to not do that weird gravelly thing, and not eating dairy is really hard.

I wish I had the balls to just make the decision everyone thinks I've already made about where I'm going after camp. I wish a lot, I've discovered.

...but I still have hope.

God is good. All the time. God is good.