damned feelings.

Apparently I'm really bad at this NaBloPoMo thing. You know why? 'Cause I'm not blonde.

Anywho, I'm sitting at home in the dark, in my own living room, because there's three people (four if you count Steph in the bedroom) sleeping right now. Losers. So I'm confined to a computer that isn't mine in the darkness because I'm too nice to wake them up like they did to me this morning. Grr...

I wish life could be better, even though I'm a happy enough person already. I wish the snow could come and Christmas wouldn't. I wish that I could tell him how I feel, but he was checking out the new girl right in front of me today. I wish she wasn't all hot and girly like she is. I wish she wasn't working in the kitchen, and I hope I don't end up hating her for it. I wish he wasn't training her, either. I wish I didn't work tonight. I wish I had a money tree in my backyard that never loses its bloom. I wish I could see Courtney. Both of them. I wish he liked me the way I like him. I wish I didn't live with Queen Bitch and her minions. I wish she wasn't QB; we used to be so close and now we're not at all. I wish I could lose some of me. I wish for world peace. I wish that I wasn't who I am, but am super thankful that I am the way I am. I wish my friends could all be happy, or at least happier. I wish. I wish. I wish. I wish.

I hope for the future.

Damn it.

On the upside, the people who were asleep in the living room are now awake (only 4 1/2 hours later...), and one of them tipped over a glass of water, and two of them said ''watch the puddle'' about three times before he got up and the fourth time they were saying it, this happened:

Jay: ''watch for the pu...''

Curtis steps right in the puddle. Right in the middle of it, too. It was hilarious. But I'm already late for work, so I have to book it. Through the snow. Boo on weather. Especially in Southern Alberta.