Discovering The Waterfront

I will promise myself I won’t care,
Distracting myself from your stare.
And I’ve seen this mistake once before.

I’ve hung up my guns...
I won’t kill again.

I won’t forget you.
I won’t forget you.
I’m not gonna let you win.

But I’m tired of lying;
Tired of fighting you,
And it's not gonna change.

You asked for my heart.
You know that I’m down...

I’ve sailed off to sea...
I’m not coming back.

I won’t forget you.
I won’t forget you.
I’m not gonna let you win.

But I’m tired of the lying,
Tired of fighting you.
And it's not gonna change.

Counting down...
And you know it makes no sense.

Counting down...
And I know you can’t ever change.
When I’m trembling,
Thrown overboard;
When I’m ready to relive the past.

Counting down...
Make that sound.
Break the silence.

Pretend it's not forever.
I'll pull myself together.
I'll say that I'll forget you.
I'll breathe...

And I'll say it never hurt me,
And look at it as learning,
And laugh about the good and the bad.

We don’t belong together.
I know I'll feel better
One day when I can make it through.

I won’t forget you.
I won’t forget you.
I’m not gonna let you win.

But I’m tired of lying,
Tired of fighting you;
And it's not gonna change.

I won’t forget you.
Counting down...
I’m not gonna let you win.
Counting down...
I’m tired of the lying.
Tired of fighting you,
And it's not gonna change....

Yet.

~Blackbird

*Just a note...this entry is based on the song "Discovering The Waterfront" by Silverstein; but I've changed some of the lyrics to fit what I'm feeling at this moment in time.